Day 1: Celebrate
We were laying in bed Sunday night, 30 minutes away from Josh taking his first dose of chemo, all the hype and anticipation leading up to the big moment, felt a little anticlimactic to go swallow a pill and go to sleep to be honest. We talked about this new season we’re about to embark on and all the potential highs and lows that could come with it, but more importantly, we talked about joy. We read one of Ann Voskamp’s blogs the other day called ‘Celebrating in the midst of’, thats our hearts desire, no matter how well or poorly Josh responds to all of this, we want to celebrate - be joyful, in the face of it all- there is so much hope beyond any diagnosis. We don’t just want to survive the next couple of months, we want to fully and joyfully receive with open hands whats been given to us. Would that be your first prayer for us?
Walking into his radiation treatment on Monday there was a little more anxiety, but Josh did amazing! They’re quick 15 minutes appointments, and when I say quick, I mean quick for me because I sit and drink my coffee and watch Ellen. Lying on a hard narrow table that moves in all directions and having your head strapped down with a mask for 10 minutes would probably seem less…...quick. If you know Josh well, you know this is no small feat, white coat syndrome is real folks—and I am so proud! Josh will tell you its not him, the spirit is at work and God is so good! Our ever faithful father is truly carrying our weak and weary selves, making his power so evident. Eph 3:20 “Now all glory to God, who is able, through his mighty power at work within us, to accomplish infinitely more than we might ask or think.” He has been so gracious and kind to help Josh overcome his fear of appointments these last couple of years and we are SO grateful for this!
So thats it, 1 day down, 29 to go.
Before this even started there was such a huge outpouring of love and support, we feel so overly and abundantly blessed by all the friends and family who have come along side us, to help us, carry us, feed us, support us, pray for us, love on us — we are so grateful, truly. Thank you for walking this road with us!
